This was actually a really nice message to receive. My output on this blog has been less than usual lately, and a lot of it is a bit more frank and serious than it was in the past.. It’s nice to know that not everyone is rolling their eyes and unfollowing me as quick as they can :P
Hard truth time: you have a rather specific kink. And there is plenty of wonderful things about being kinky, but here’s the downside.
Unless you embrace it—and I mean really come to term, come out, get over yourself embrace it—then you are doomed to shitty sex. I mean that. The kind of sex people leave their significant other over and then later tell you “the sex was awful.” And you nod like you’ve been there before, but if you haven’t let yourself just be, then you have no idea. Shitty sex and these secret jerk off sessions are all you have.
This is your life. You get one of these for sure, and then who knows. Hiding is wasting it. I’m serious. I’m not trying to get you hard or make you come. I’m telling you that if you’re sittting there like some submissive in training that will magically will themselves into full being one day when that wonderful perfect dom like in your head comes a long, you are just fucking with time and running away from desire.
The two biggest doms you’ll ever know are time and desire. Everyone’s their bitch. Your desire won’t got away. Time won’t stop. You get to, if you choose to, share yourself with someone and make then lonely world a little less lonely. Or you get to hide out in some meek corner, probably lying to everyone and yourself, counting life in missed chances.
Yea, it’s really scary to share the real you, but if you ask me NOTHING is scarier than the threat of bad sex until you die.
It was awkward and done out of desperation. I’m sad I did it the way I did it. Since then, I’ve grown a lot and had a lot of wonderful, hot, consensually kinky sexual experiences, and they were amazing and a celebration of my identity and theirs.
People sometimes take kinks too seriously. It’s depressing. I love being submissive and degraded and shamed, but I am also a feminist. And feminism comes first. You are allowed to degrade me when I say so. That’s the way it should work, always.
I love the idea of being a slut, but my safety and dignity matter more so I’m don’t do unsafe Craigslist meets or agree to do something with anyone I haven’t met in a public place to vet first.
I love being bimbo, but I’m not going to be someones mistress. And so on.
So my first sex experience was bad, as it was with a lot of us. Reality is complicated. Shocking, I know.
A good friend of mine (genetic female, if that even matters) just described me as “Stupid, pink, and proud!"
It made my day ♥
My own erotic imagination. My sex life. My love of making up characters and telling stories.
Don’t be so obsessed with either/or ideas about gender, and get over the shame of having a non-standard gender identity.
If you are as androgynous as you make it sound, it should be pretty easy to look femme, to take small steps into feeling how it feels to be feminine. I honestly find the whole either/or approach to gender really BORING. It’s narrow and not reflective of the nuance we see all around us. You don’t have to fully embody male or female (really, next to no one is). You don’t have to stick to one expression. For some people full feminine gender expression is something they only do in a sexual context, but for others its something they live their lives as. And some are just gender fluid, with a gender identity that fluctuates over time.
So my advise is pretty much the same advise I give everyone. Step away from they hypersexual alternate reality of Tumblr and really reflect on your identity and where you want to take it.
I get a lot of messages like this—most are probably at least half fiction—that seem written just to get me to command them that they have no choice but to accept their fate and become a total sex crazed sissy. And I get it, I have the submission related kinks, too. But that’s not how to deal with this. If you really do have a feminine, or partially feminine identity, then you have to approach that in a real and honest way. If you can’t deal with these questions unless your jerking off then you have a frustrating and confusing life ahead of you, with cycles of shame and impulse. And shame will ruin your life. It really will.
Being ourselves is hard, regardless of whether we have sexuality or gender issues to complicate them. No one else can lead you to that truth. Having a dom feminize you is something you embark on AFTER you figure your shit out. It’s not your ticket to figuring it out without doing the hard work.
People do ask, though mostly anonymously. I will probably get around to putting them up here, but because the originals are lost to a broken harddrive I have to download them off the old blogspot one by one. It’ll happen eventually :)
Thank you, Sir, for your approval, and it’s a joy to know I’m keeping you hard!
Thank you, Sir, for the compliment :)
As a sissy. there is nothing more wonderful in the world than sucking a man’s cock and serving at his pleasure.